Back to work.....

 

.....the worst part is having to leave these cute little faces!

I just got done putting both kids to bed and now am trying to get all organized for tomorrow morning. 5:30 is going to come early and I am hoping that will give me enough time to get ready and get out the door by 7:15. Jax has not been sleeping well at night these past couple weeks, he has started to roll over all the time. The problem is that he can only roll one way and then he gets stuck on his stomach and screams until I come and get him. By that time he is usually so worked up he needs to eat to go back to sleep. I thought we had his sleeping figured out but evidently not. Of course it has to happen right as I am going back to work! I am nervous, I have been an emotional wreck all day long. To top it off Dave left for deer/pheasant hunting in South Dakota on Saturday morning and he will be gone until next Sunday. I know other mom's have been in the same situation as me so I am not alone but that doesn't make it any easier. I know it was hard going back to work after Colt was born but I don't remember being nearly as emotional, he was only 3 months old at the time and really didn't even know what was going on. I have become so much more attached to Colt and he is really aware of me leaving right now, even Jax has started to recognize me and prefer me over others when he is upset. I know Colt is going to cry tomorrow when I leave but I also know it will take him maybe 10 minutes to get over it and start having fun. I am leaving the boys with a wonderful babysitter who also happens to be a friend of mine so I feel really good about that. I shouldn't complain, our lives could be so much worse. I am so grateful for all God has blessed me with. I just wish it was me taking care of them and not someone else. For the last 5.5 months I was able to be a stay-at-home mommy and there is truly no better job in the entire world than that!